My Driving Journey - Lesson 36 & 37

Tuesday 29th November

My lesson today was an exciting one because I got to choose what we was going to do, oooh exciting! hehe.. So I chose to do manoeuvres, okay well Sharon suggested a few things & I picked manoeuvres. I got to practice a hill start on one estate & then headed across to an estate near by & got to practice a reverse around a bend. Well I'd like to say third time lucky for my attempt but it wasn't third, it was more like fourth....I got it a lot better the fourth time, practice really does help. After this I got to practice doing a parallel park & then headed back home.

 

 

Thursday 31st November

Anxiety was high this morning, don't know why but I suppose we just have to feel the fear & do it anyway.. Over to the next town we went, with a really strong nausea feeling in tow...what would we be doing today? Oh yeah, that's right..a mock test. To say how sick I felt I actually did pretty well, I only managed to get a few minors this time. They were really little things too, you really need to keep alert & make sure it is obvious that your aware of what is happening too. Nothing else to share about this lesson so I'll just leave it at that.


 

 Well it is safe to say that these lessons fly by now, it is crazy!

 

I sound like a broken record every time I say that I can't believe how far I have come. I genuinely never thought this would happen to me. Just think how close I am to getting a full licence. If you knew me before I started I now feel like I am a changed person.

 

Are you still yet to learn to drive & are considering it more now?

Please do let me know, I genuinely love hearing from you.

 

Thanks for reading.

- Anna ♥ 

Sit Down Sunday - 3rd November 2013

Firstly I just want to actually give credit to Lisette Loves for the idea, I really like & enjoy reading her Thankful Thursday posts. So it is safe to say she inspired me to create this feature, thank you lovely! Go ahead & check out her blog too.

 

Secondly I'd like to recommend Rachael's new feature called Lots Of Lovely Little Things.. I absolutely love Rachael's blog over at A Mad Hatter's Tea Party, please do check out her blog.. I'm sure you wont be disappointed.



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Let's get started, shall we?

- going to a bonfire display & getting in as a child
- receiving a surprise card in the post
- my helpful friend Joe for getting Luke Britnell to follow me on twitter
- building friendships with a few of the blogging girls
- cosy tights


Well that's a pretty short & sweet list but it is all I can think of for this week.
Not every week will be a massive list.

What are you grateful for this week?
What have you enjoyed?

Be sure to leave me a comment & let me know.
I love hearing from you.

Thanks for reading.
- Anna ♥

Something to focus on, a purpose & a meaning....

That is exactly why I created a blog. It gives me something to focus on, a purpose & a meaning.I didn't start blogging to get readers at all, I just blogged for something to focus on....something that could be mine. When I felt very little purpose in my life, my little blog was born. Never did I think people would be interested in what I had to say / waffle on about.

 

I used to just blog randomly whenever I felt the need really. Now I have a little routine I like to stick to because then I have a little bit of organisation in my life. My routine is to blog on a Monday (my driving lesson journey), Wednesday (hey, let's talk about....), Friday (whatever I feel the need to talk about) & Sunday (sit down Sunday). So currently my blog is very close to my heart, it is my focus. I'm sure I'm not the only one who thinks like this & if you don't blog then you might not understand.

 

I know overtime I will probably have less time to blog but I shall deal with that when the time comes. Right now I just have to go with the flow of things, take every day as it comes. You know what, life is unexpected & it can quite easily change. Did I expect to spend more time at home at the age of 21, no. But what would life be like without a battle to fight? So every now & then I will obviously share whatever is going on in my life, in my mind because....

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Do you blog?
What made you start blogging?
Does you use your blog to tell your story?

I really love writing my blog & reading others too.

Thanks for reading.
- Anna ♥

Hey, let's talk about....independence



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Is there any better feeling than being independent?
Being able to complete something by yourself & being proud. If you ask me, I feel strongly about being independent. Being independent to me is both a goal & a dream. Right now I don't dream about finding prince charming, having children & a big house. No, right now I dream of being able to provide for myself, be independent, my own woman. I don't want to feel like I have to be part of a massive crowd to be a part of something. I can be myself & still be part of something, still have a part to play in life.

Now I look back, I haven't ever really actually had any dreams. Well not that I can remember anyway. But I do know that now my dream is to become independent, become my own woman. I don't want somebody to dictate what I do or how I do something. Part of this has actually come from past experiences of knowing that people really don't stick around forever. Don't get me wrong I do think people will stick in peoples lives forever, it all just depends on the person & probably the situation. I know I haven't stuck around in peoples lives forever, that is just the way life goes. We all do have those people in our lives who we can count on though. I don't think that being independent means you forget these people at all. Everybody has their own independence, some people have their independence taken away from them for awhile. With the help & constant support from loved ones I think we can all regain our independence.

 I'm going to focus on supporting myself because what better feeling is there than knowing you can do something by yourself? Knowing that even if you get knocked down, you can get back up on your own two feet & start fighting again. Don't get me wrong all the support in the world can be given but it is all down to ourselves. Nobody can change our lives & our future but ourselves.

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Life really is a fight, nobody comes out alive. But that doesn't mean we should just roll over or curl up in a ball & let the toughness of life decide how we spend our lives. I don't want to spend my life in fear, but can I control that fear in a quick decision of you know what....I'm not going to be scared anymore, I'm not going to live in fear. No, I can't change it overnight. It is a long process & so is becoming independent.

Being independent can be at completely different levels. It all needs to be worked towards realistically too, I won't just wake up tomorrow & be like you know what I think I'm going to rent my own flat, buy a car.. I won't think like that because I know full well that is not realistic for me at all, I don't have a fulltime job so how would I provide for myself? I really wouldn't.. I would struggle. So my current independent goal is to be able to manage going out on my own more, instead of going with someone.

A lot of people my age are probably living away from home, providing for themselves....are they struggling? who knows. I'm not going to compare myself to others anymore because the whole point of being independent is also being your own person, unique.... so I don't need to compare myself to others. No two peoples lives are on the same track, every single persons life is going at a different speed. We have obstacles thrown in our way for us to fight through & battle them.

I'd like to think a good few of you reading this can connect to this. I know there is a lot of you fighting some kind of battle, whether it be a physical battle &/or a mental battle, a battle with your own mind. I really want you all to know it doesn't matter what speed you live your life at all, what matters is that we all come out the other end stronger than ever. I really want you all to remember, whatever battle you are fighter....

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What does independence mean to you?
Let me know in the comments below.
If you felt a connection to this post let me know too.

Thanks so much for reading.
- Anna ♥

My Driving Journey - Lesson 35

This week I only had one lesson, my usual Tuesday slot was taken by a test & my instructor was off on Thursday since the last week has been half term. It felt so weird just having one lesson but this week is back to Tuesday & Thursday, yipeeeee!

 

 

Before I start with my lesson run down, I wanna know if anyone can help me. As you can see on my image above I added my URL, now my URL has changed but I don't actually know how to remove the old URL from the picture...any tips? Please let me know in the comments, thanks!

 

 

Monday 21st October

Since starting my lessons I have been waiting for rain & finally we got rain. I know a few people who hate driving in the rain but I was quite curious & eager to give it a go. I have to say, I don't really mind it to be honest. But out of all the things we could be doing in the rain, it had to be an emergency stop didn't it. Before being introduced to emergency stops I got chance to practice a 3 point turn, I managed that in 3 & didn't hit any kerbs...bonus!

 

Then after that we got to practice more emerging from junctions. I also got explained the 'show me, tell me' part of the test, I had heard of it but never been explained much about it really. I guess the clue is kind of in the name really. Up next was the emergency stop, it is so weird trying to stop quickly when really I've been so used to slowing down gradually. I had heard that like the instructor/examiner will hit the dashboard & then you are expected to stop. It was nothing like that, Sharon checked behind her & then when she was ready & knew it was safe, she would put her arm out in front of her with her hand up...imagine Spice Girls - Stop & you've got it about right..

 

stop right now, thank you very much I need somebody with a human touch, hey you always on the run gotta slow it down baby gotta have some fun....

 

& then obviously I have to stop the car wherever we are. I have to remember to hit my foot on the brake like I'm having a tantrum. The first couple of the times weren't great but once she told me to put my foot down harder, like having a tantrum it was better....the papers on the backseat all fell on the floor, so that must of been a good sign, right?

 

 

What did you think to emergency stops?

Let me know in the comments.

I really love hearing from you.

 

Thanks for reading.

- Anna ♥

Sit Down Sunday - 27th October 2013

I've decided this week to do a little collage of some of the things I am grateful for/have enjoyed this week....

 

 

- advice & guidance from friends

- playing board games

- my thick winter duvet

- newly painted nails

- getting creative & doodling

- one direction's new song, the story of my life

- support & belief from so many different people

- my mums cooking

- bubble baths

- fresh air

 

 

Have you enjoyed anything this week?

What are you grateful for this week?

 

I'd love to hear from you, so feel free to leave me a comment below.

Thanks for reading

- Anna ♥

a waiting game....

tick, tock, tick, tock..

All I can think about is time passing, the waiting game will soon come to an end. I will know the decision made & my near future too..

 

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The waiting game fills me with both excitement & dread. The excitement of what is to come & dread if what I want to happen doesn't. Last week I had a job interview, well a casual one but still. Tuesday morning last week I wrote a cover letter for a job I had seen the night before & headed down to the shop to hand in my cover letter & CV. After that I had my driving lesson & when I returned back from my lesson there was a voicemail on our home phone. It was only the man from the shop I went in earlier with my CV asking if I could give him a call back. I phoned back as soon as I got home from my lesson. I was asked if I could get down for an interview/informal chat. In a manic rush I dashed down there & had my interview.

 

Anxiety was high but the interview/informal chat went really well. They were really impressed with my CV, the only negative they had was that I worked for someone else (I help my parents out whenever they need help). But I explained my situation so it was all good, better than good infact brilliant. I decided that since anxiety was such a big part of my life, I would be completely honest. They were so support & reacted exactly how I really hoped they would.

 

Originally I was meant to hear back last week but then I received an email at the end of the week saying they had a few more people to interview over this week & I would hear as soon as. I think it's great when people do that, atleast everyone knows where they stand. I'm still waiting to hear....Every time the phone rings I run to it & every time the post arrives I run to pick it up.

 

I really, really, really, reallyyyyyy hope that I get this job. It will be so great for me, I will be beyond grateful. I know it wont be easy to get used to it at all, it will be tough but it will be totally worth it.

 

I thought I would share my experience this past two week with you guys.

Thanks for reading.

- Anna ♥