Sit Down Sunday - 2nd March 2014

Ok, so I'm currently trying my best to keep my eyes open at 8pm on a Sunday evening...damn, I'm such the example of rock & roll don't you think? :) or not! But of course I am sitting down to recap on my week & all the things that have made me happy. I like focusing on the littler things in life but this week a few bigger things in life are going to creep into the list & rightly so they should every now & then.
Would any of my posts feel right without some form of image, whether it be a person, an object or a quote...it just wouldn't feel right without one so wait no more, the one for this post is....
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Yeah so it kind of speaks for itself, quite literally hey! :) Try & make your smile change the world & not the other way around!
The things that have made me happy are....
- getting a car (it has to be at the top of the list because it is just an incredible feeling)
- bubble baths (I absolutely love a bubble bath)
- gaining more freedom & confidence through driving
- receiving even more cards, I mean who doesn't love cards?!
- spending time with the family who are like my second family
- made up pudding (vanilla ice cream, chocolate syrup & broken up gooey biscuit...delicious!)
- attending a cupcake decorating class (watch this space, a separate blog post will appear...as if by magic :P ok, or me publishing it...humour me?)
- feeling myself grow more as a person
- being able read more of my current book
- winning a giveaway competition, thanks Rachael for holding the giveaway!
I'm going to leave the list at that & shimmy off & have a lovely bubble bath....aaahhhh bliss! :)
What has been good about your week? Let me know pleaseeeeee & thank you very much! :D
- Anna ♥

My Driving Journey - Lesson 60, 61 & 2nd driving test

I'm seriously giddy typing this post, I genuinely can't believe I have managed to gain a life skill. I've passed my driving test, I have a driving licence (well when it arrives in the post I do)! It's so flipping exciting! I genuinely think my life is on the up right now...please don't come crashing down anytime soon, thank you very much! :)
 
I'm going to be completely honest the whole journey every now & then has been a little bit tough but I think because I was in a good mind set that improved it all that much. Knowing that if I cancelled a lesson with too late notice I would still be charged made me not want to cancel any lessons at all. I only managed to miss a few & that wasn't always my choice but you just kind of go with it.
 
I feel like I'm going to go into like an acceptance speech like I've just won an award, oohh why not hey? Let's go for it....
 
Firstly I'd like to give a massive thanks to my instructor Sharon, she has been absolutely incredible! So understanding & very supportive. I felt she believed in me from the very start, which is always a great feeling. I don't just feel like she was my instructor I felt I created a friendship with her. We would chat away all lesson from the moment I got in the car to the moment I got out again. I really did get lucky choosing Sharon as my instructor honestly, I'm so grateful!
 
I'd also really like to thank my family, friends & fellow bloggers in the community who have been so supportive. All of your kind, positive words have been so fantastic & really helped me through. Just like anyone else I love to hear that I've helped someone in some way. I know a few people have said I've inspired them & made them want to drive too. You can do it, you just need to be ready & believe in yourself! You can do this! :)
 
Ok, so maybe now I'll actually go into the lesson updates & driving test too... Sorry about the waffle but brace yourself, it might just get a little bit worse...
 

 
Tuesday 18th February
Eeeekkk...driving lesson in the mini, woop woop! I really did enjoy driving the mini & now I'm actually gutted that I'm not driving it anymore to be honest. But since I hadn't drove the mini since before new year I just had a drive around kind of lesson to just get used to the car again. That was pretty easy to get the idea of again so that's really all for that lesson, now on to the next....
 
Wednesday 19th February
DUM, DUM, DUMMMMMMMM!
Driving test day again, how exciting & scary too?! Luckily this time round I wasn't as nervous to be honest. Last time I actually took some rescue remedy spray with me & had a few squirts but this time round I didn't even take it with me...woohoo! Bonus!!! I got picked up at 8.10am...yes, 8.10am! I got to practice most of my manoeuvres this time round so I was prepared & the lesson before went so smoothly so I wasn't too worried about the test itself.
 
I had a completely different examiner this time round & well I flipping passed! I passed with 4 minors, 4 MINORS!!!! I'm so proud of myself you seriously wouldn't believe how proud I am. My minors weren't anything major, funnily enough others they would be called majors...I'm totally not funny am I?! :/ 1 minor was forgetting to check my blind spot after completing a manoeuvre. 2nd minor was my positioning at a junction, in my defence the markings had worn away. 3rd minor was when I was pulling out from having to stop between two cars, a car behind had to stop...yet last time I got a major because a car had to slow down, how does that work?! I do not know! 4th minor was baffling, I don't even genuinely know how I managed it. But I got to the last roundabout before the test centre, I think I must of relaxed & thought phew then I got my gears all wrong & I genuinely thought I had got a major.. I would of cried because we were literally seconds away from the test centre...so grateful I didn't, what a relief!
 
WOWZAS TROUSERS, THATS A LOT OF CARDS!
 
I've now managed to stick all my driving lesson cards (in the photo above) in my notebook where I wrote up all my lessons too. So pleased that I managed to actually keep on top of it & do it too! Usually a good idea goes down the pan & stops after a couple of weeks. :/
 
 
I seriously don't think you understand just how proud I am of myself. I never thought I'd be able to drive, but look at me now! I didn't think I'd be able to sit my theory but I did & passed it first time. I didn't think I'd be able to do the driving lessons or test because they are based in the town that gives me my highest anxiety levels but look, I can now say I did it! Anna 1 - 0 Anxiety
 
I'm quite sad to see this come to an end actually now but I'm sure I will think of something else to blog about more than likely. I do have a few ideas swimming round in my head so watch this space!
 
Thank you for all your tweets, messages & comments too, I really do appreciate you taking time to read & connect with me. As always thanks for reading too!
 
- Anna ♥

Sit Down Sunday - 23rd February 2014

Is it really Sunday again already?! WOW, this week seems to have just flown by. I've been so busy recently that I'm so behind with blog reading. I'd probably log on to bloglovin' & have over 60 posts to read but I will get round to it. I usually read on a Sunday morning but this Sunday morning ended up with me looking at cars online....cos incase you didn't know already & if you didn't where have you been hiding? I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!!!!

& breatheeee......
I do these posts every week to recap on the good things about the week just gone because let's be honest if we all just look on the bright side of things sometimes life can be that little bit easier so why don't you try to....

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Things that have made me happy this week are....

- passing my driving test, WOOHOOO!
- receiving lovely, kind & supportive words
- going car shopping, exciting but stressful too!
- watching Identity Thief...very funny!
- finally watching the original catfish (the movie)
- keeping busy on Saturdays now
- people waving at me whilst I was cleaning the windows, slightly random but made me smile :)



As you can tell this weeks main focus has been driving & cars....

I really can't wait to be have a car & freedom & adventures.

What has made you happy this week?

Let me know in the comments & as always thanks for reading.
- Anna ♥

the difference a year or two can make....

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I've recently been thinking about how much my life has changed over the past year. Infact it has changed positively in the past couple of weeks! I actually look back a little & actually think I can't believe it too! It has changed little by little every year actually but the past year seems to have been my best one. I never imagined I would be where I am now. You know onwards & upwards....
 
I've decided I'm just going to try & write a very little, ok ok...maybe a fairly lengthy post (you know I don't do short posts very well) about the past year or so. Of course, I'm going to try & find a few photos to fit in too. :) 


 
First off without a doubt I'm going to have to mention the exact reason I'm actually here, blogging in the first place. One word for you, anxiety...if you suffer with anxiety you will know how relatable the below picture is....
 
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This month a year ago I decided to start blogging & I can honestly say I haven't looked back since. I started blogging about my friend anxiety. I thought it would be a good way to kind of express myself & have something to focus on, little did I know I would become connected to so many people too. I absolutely LOVE it! I really love the whole process of blogging...the planning what I'm going to write about (sometimes its just straight out of the blue, random & whenever I want to blog) , taking or finding pictures, writing my post, receiving lovely comments on my posts. The blogging community really is a lovely community to be part of & it is safe to say I have created some friendships too.
 
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Over the past couple of years my thoughts really have changed but the negative thoughts can easily win if you let them out do the positive ones. I've chosen over time to change my negative thoughts for positive ones instead & I can honestly say I'm in a much better frame of mind. Don't get me wrong, the negatives do creep in every now & then but I just change them for happy positive ones instead. It isn't as simple as just changing your thoughts once or twice & expect it to work, you have to put in a lot of hard work & it should pay off...it certainly has for me.
 
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 I do think that really life hasn't got any easier as such, I certainly have got stronger as a person. I'm beginning to find my own voice, ooohh how exciting..I'm gaining my own voice at the age of twenty two...finally, praise the lord?! I used to really struggle to let go of things...whether that be something that happened, a thought in my head, a friendship or relationship that had ended. But I now feel I handle these different situations a lot better, I don't hold onto things anymore...obviously if they aren't worth holding on to. I know that I'm the stronger person for walking away instead of holding on to something that might never change. Over the past year I have certainly learnt who & what is important to me & my life. I've also learnt to put myself first sometimes too, cos sometimes you have to be selfish & look after yourself...you're the one person you can guarantee will be there for you at the end of each day. I advice each & every one of you to make a friend in yourself, embrace yourself, love yourself, become your own best friend :) Did I just sound really cheesy there? I don't care, that's how I feel & think.

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One thing I certainly have learnt to do is hold my head up high. Especially when it comes down to my anxiety. I don't shy away as much as I used to. On the 6th February this year I decided to take part in the time to talk day, which was so much fun actually. I even got to meet a friend of mine who I'd been talking to for over a year. This time last year I was pretty low actually & was waiting to start my next lot of therapy, I think. I'd already had one the previous year but that seemed to send me backwards...not the direction I was hoping for exactly. I've now started to talk a lot more about my anxiety, both on my blog & in real life too. Anxiety is only a little part of me, yes it can sometimes feel a huge part but I'm not going to let it define me. If I feel someone should know about my situation I'd much rather be honest & mention my situation. Like before Christmas I applied for a job, I had two interviews & from the first interview I was honest & open from the start...I literally mean within a couple of sentences I was in there dropping the anxiety bomb. Thankfully I had such a fantastic response from them & they were so understanding. Unfortunately I didn't get the Monday to Friday job with them but I have now got a Saturday job with them, which they hope will lead to a more permanent position....here is hoping! I know how lucky I am to have such a supportive bunch of people around me, I don't take any of it for granted.

Then the most recent thing to happen to me....I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!!!! I FLIPPING DID IT!!!! :D I still can't actually fully believe it, maybe it will sink in more next week when I would usually have my lesson or maybe when I actually get to drive a car on my own. I really can't wait to be able to have my own adventures & go to more places too. This time last year I genuinely never thought I would be able to drive. Luckily for me again, I got another person to add to my supportive bunch. My instructor Sharon, I contacted a few instructors being honest about how I was & two men said I should wait until I'm fully better....clearly they were clueless. Then two women were very understanding, I felt like I clicked with Sharon more so I went with her & she has been absolutely amazing during it all! I really am so grateful for her, she has been so understanding & supportive. So yeah, that happened & that's all I have to update you with I think...I just said that as if I've only wrote a little paragraph, as if that would happen!

 
I'm not sure I actually know anybody else who has passed their driving test & framed the certificate but because of my anxiety & situation it really is a massive achievement for me so I thought sod it, I'm framing it! So as you can tell from the photo above I treated myself to a pretty frame, even got a little bit of money off because a friend served me & got family & friends discount...thanks Adele! :) we all love a little bit of a saving, right?! :)
 
 
A little note to leave you all on...
This post wasn't just for me, it was for you too...
 
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If you have taken time out of your day to celebrate with me the difference a year can make, I would like to thank you very much! Ooohh & a MAHOOSSSIIVEEE thank you for all your lovely tweets, you guys are the best! :)
 
- Anna ♥

My Driving Journey - Lesson 59

I'm starting to feel like these posts should be coming to an end very soon, well I hope they are actually. I do love driving lessons don't get me wrong & I'm creating a friendship with Sharon too but after doing so many lessons & being capable of driving now I just want to actually say I have a full licence.
 
 

Thursday 13th February
After last weeks terrible lesson & failing my test. I got to practice manoeuvres during my lesson today, what a relief! I practiced a reverse around a corner, all went well. I got to practice a few bay parks, they went well too. Then I got to practice doing a parallel park, only one....did it go well? Yeahhhh! Did I manage to park it in one? Yeahhhhh! :) Did I hit the kerb or go up the kerb? Noooo :)

After my lesson I got a text from Sharon to say she is finally picking the mini back up...YESSSSSSS!!!! I'm so pleased about it, I will have the car for my next test. Hopefully I'll pass this time round, fingers crossed! :)



That's it for this weeks update, fairly short & sweet? I think so! :)

I have my second test this week, wish me luck & fingers crossed?

Thanks for reading & following along with my journey.

- Anna ♥


Sit Down Sunday - 16th February 2014

What better time to write this than not long after finishing a delicious Sunday dinner! I couldn't think of a better time either :)
 
I have a question for you, yes you...you might be down in the dumps right now, you might have had a crappy week but can you please pick out one tiny little thing that was good about your week & share it with me? :)

Remember if you have had a bad day or a bad week or maybe even a bad month don't forget to try your best to....

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Don't let anything or anyone keep you down. No matter what life throws at you always try to hold your head up high & even try a little smile, maybe? :)

Cos in the words of Luke Britnell 'everything always looks great with a smile'...I agree with you there Luke! *high five*



On to the good things about my previous week, always better to focus on the positives instead of the negatives....

- the delicious Sunday roast my mum just cooked us
- a successful driving lesson, heres to a better test next time...
- feeling organised
- working my first EVER Saturday job & LOVED every minute of it! Roll on next Saturday :)
- handwriting letters to surprise friends that are a fair distance away...
- starting making my patchwork cushion, watch this space...
- being busy



That is pretty much it for this week, well what I can think of cos the week has just flown by. These weeks seem to be going by faster & faster & getting shorter & flippin shorter!

I'd really love it if you left me a comment with one positive thing about your week, thanks for reading & thanks in advance for commenting :) (that's if you do of course!) hehe....

- Anna ♥

I've decided to create a scrapbook...

Since today is Valentines Day (I did type the post up about a week ago but it was waiting for the right moment to make its appearance!) :) I thought since it's all about love, I thought I'd share with you one of my loves....for crafting & faffing about! I think creating something yourself is a real boost to your self esteem & time well spent. I'll stop waffling now & just post the post then shall I? hope you enjoy! :)

 
I've decided that this year I'm going to try & 'get out more'. Well, that is how some people phrase it isn't it? I just want to live more, experience more things. Spend more money on experiences & create memories, instead of buying more clothes. I have an awful lot, I'm not ashamed of that! What girl doesn't have a lot of clothes?

I thought I could share my little adventures with you lovely bunch & now I've created something else too....A SCRAPBOOK!!!! can I get a woo hoo? Come on, atleast one of you must of woohooed? :)

My scrapbook is going to be filled with all kinds of outings & experiences that I do to prove I can beat my anxiety. Prove that I can live & not just float through life. Brace yourself because this post may contain a few photos. We love photos, right? :)

everything I've been using, minus a rubber!
I thought I'd share with you some of the bits & bobs that I've used to create my scrapbook. Buying a scrapbook would definitely be a start unless you fancy making one, that's an idea. But it would probably be just as cheap to buy a ready made one. :) I bought mine from Boots, I think it was around £7. I got it when it was half price, gotta look out for bargains. :)

Be sure to look out for offers on photo printing, it is usually a lot cheaper to get them done online & delivered. They come through normal post, mine arrived within a few days.

main page, let's kick some ass!
I thought it would be a good idea to create a main page, basically what my scrapbook was all about..giving it meaning. :) I'd been looking for decent sized stencils for ages & couldn't find any but I came across some East Of India self adhesive wooden letters. They can be used for sticking onto signs but I thought they were fantastic for what I needed, just the right style & size. BONUS!

my East Of India wooden letters
I just used a pencil to go around the letters & then I got my colour on! I always find colouring really therapeutic. I went for nice, colourful colours cos it's going to be a happy reminder so I need to use as much colour as I can. :)

red letters, for the red carpet..showbiz of course!
One of the first pages I created was my cinema trips page. When I went to the cinema for my birthday it was the first time in over four years but I'm fairly hopeful that I'll be going again...hence why I've dedicated two pages so far to cinema trips. I'm hoping to go once I've passed my test hopefully, I really want to see That Awkward Moment. Zac Efron, zero clothing, big screen?! You want to go now too, don't you? ;)

loving the rain at my first ever Westlife concert!
 Ooh, a little tip....
 to add a jazzy touch to your scrapbook photos use patterned/shaped scissors. One bonus is it makes the photos look different, another bonus is you don't have to worry about getting the photos looking dead straight. You can just jazz it up as much or as little as you like. :)
 
I went to a Westlife concert, screw you anxiety! I actually went to two! :)
  Ooh, another couple of little tips....
for adding pictures & what not in, I decided to use double sided tape, instead of glue. Glue can get pretty messy & can look untidy. Especially if it goes all uneven & makes your page bumpy. To add a bit of colour & pattern to your scrapbook, buy some patterned paper. I got mine from The Works, crafty bargains can be found there! :)

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Righty ho, that is pretty much all I've got to share with you. I thought it would be a lovely thing for me to have to remember all the good times. So when I'm having a bad day I'll be able to remind myself & look at the memories..knowing that they will bring a smile to my face & know better days will come again! :)
 
Have you ever had a go at scrapbooking? It is so much fun, very therapeutic & great for rainy days! I highly recommend it! :)
 
Let me know if you've ever given it a go, how it turned out & if you plan to in the future let me know too. Anything scrapbooky related leave me a comment, deal? :)
 
Thanks for reading, that is if you managed to read it all & didn't get bored! :)
 
- Anna ♥