Right now this picture seriously speaks a 1,000 words!
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I should probably start by explaining why I'm actually writing this post.. I've realised even more so recently I have absolutely NOTHING figured & absolutely NO idea what I want to do with my life...should I be alarmed & scared?!
Whilst on Skype to my friend Nicola we were both discussing this & I said 'you know what, not many people talk about it but how many people actually have their life figured out?' So I thought you know what sod it! I'm going to blog about it, I was going to call the post 'SOD IT!' but I wasn't 100% sure how that would go down really. I held back the urge to type that, but here I am...brace yourself for a waffly waffle post! :D
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I've been considering volunteering for a while now, so today I bit the bullet & had a full browse through vinspired & communicated with whatever lovely person was on their twitter account today. God help them though, they must have been thinking who is this girl, seriously?! After browsing though I have realised I genuinely have no idea as of what I want to do. I feel so clueless on life right now. When people ask me what I want to do or what I enjoy, I have absolutely no idea. It's just like I don't even know myself at all..
I don't want my anxiety to hold me back at all, but all you anxiety sufferers out there will know its so much easier said than done. 'No, I won't let my anxiety control me'.. But how easy it is to manage to travel far? Or to sometimes concentrate on day to day things? Yesterday I really struggled when travelling 10 minutes up the road, to the place where I have my driving lessons so tomorrow could be fun.
All my life I've lived in the same house & same town, which I love & really do love living here. I don't want to move, I just want to be able to feel comfortable & able to explore the world. It isn't an option for me to just stay in my house & just survive. I want to be able to live, be free like a bird! Experience things, create new memories, make new friendships!
I know eventually at some point my parents shop will close, unless of course someone takes it on. But when it does close, where on earth will I be? Absolutely STUCK! I am so grateful that they let me help them out when I can, because they fully know & understand my situation (well actually I say they, more like mum does). I really want to be able to do something for myself, create my own life. Do I have any idea how to go about that? The answer would be NO! I have absolutely NOTHING figured out & I'm beginning to panic!
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In all honesty, do you have your life or anything figured out?
Feel free to leave me a comment & let me know before I go crazy :)
Thanks for reading my waffle, hopefully maybe some of you can relate to me too!
- Anna ♥
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I've been considering volunteering for a while now, so today I bit the bullet & had a full browse through vinspired & communicated with whatever lovely person was on their twitter account today. God help them though, they must have been thinking who is this girl, seriously?! After browsing though I have realised I genuinely have no idea as of what I want to do. I feel so clueless on life right now. When people ask me what I want to do or what I enjoy, I have absolutely no idea. It's just like I don't even know myself at all..
I don't want my anxiety to hold me back at all, but all you anxiety sufferers out there will know its so much easier said than done. 'No, I won't let my anxiety control me'.. But how easy it is to manage to travel far? Or to sometimes concentrate on day to day things? Yesterday I really struggled when travelling 10 minutes up the road, to the place where I have my driving lessons so tomorrow could be fun.
All my life I've lived in the same house & same town, which I love & really do love living here. I don't want to move, I just want to be able to feel comfortable & able to explore the world. It isn't an option for me to just stay in my house & just survive. I want to be able to live, be free like a bird! Experience things, create new memories, make new friendships!
I know eventually at some point my parents shop will close, unless of course someone takes it on. But when it does close, where on earth will I be? Absolutely STUCK! I am so grateful that they let me help them out when I can, because they fully know & understand my situation (well actually I say they, more like mum does). I really want to be able to do something for myself, create my own life. Do I have any idea how to go about that? The answer would be NO! I have absolutely NOTHING figured out & I'm beginning to panic!
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In all honesty, do you have your life or anything figured out?
Feel free to leave me a comment & let me know before I go crazy :)
Thanks for reading my waffle, hopefully maybe some of you can relate to me too!
- Anna ♥
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Great, honest post. I'd say I'm figuring it out - can see where I'm going more than I used to be able to, but part of me thinks there would be no fun in life if we had everything figured out! Volunteering is a great way to start deciding what it is you love doing too.
ReplyDeletethank you :) Ahhh, yes very good point! I'm going to try & look at it like that :) xx
DeleteI'm 28 this year and I don't have a clue about my life I will be honest. I somewhat had it figured out what I wanted to do while I was doing my MA and then I fell in love with an American and it all changed. Now four years later I'm living in the US and right now my life is all up in the air. We want to buy a house, yet we kind of want to move cities, I work for myself but I don't know if it's something I want to do for forever and yeah. I kind of just drift and half the things I want to do, or think I'd like to do, I don't. Because i'm too shy, too scared and I lack the confidence too so I relate to what you say a lot. Sometimes I think it's okay not to have too many plans - that way when something happens you can think about it and work out which direction to head in rather than missing out altogether because you're mind is set on a goal.
ReplyDelete<3 thank you Rachael! VERY well said..that has really made me stop & think maybe I shouldn't worry because when something does come up I shall be prepared..well kind of :) xx
DeleteI've got nothing figured out yet either. All I know is one day I want to be a mum. What job I have to be able to afford kids is beyond me though. I'm not sure what I'm good at any more or how I can transfer any "skills" I may have into a workplace. Oh, and then throw anxiety into the mix and it becomes ten times harder to do anything.
ReplyDeleteI've decided it's okay to not have everything figured out so long as I focus on the things and people I do have. Blogging and making my signs make me happy so maybe one day I'll make them into my job.
Debi x
I feel your pain with anxiety...so much harder than 'just getting on with it'..
DeleteI'm going to take a leaf out of your book & focus on what I do have, good call Debi :) xx
Love reading the comments bit. Well I never thought I'd end up working for a dodgy kitchen door company haha everyone has different journeys and I hope this is just the start of mine, err wishful thinking! But you already have such a knowledge of your anxiety and you will overcome it and do the things you want! It's just takes time! I don't know what I want to be when I'm older! Lol I'm already so old! Wish u could rewind and work hard to do what I love x
ReplyDeleteme too :) is it dodgy? :O
DeleteI'm sure it will be Christina :) better things are coming for you! :) I know it! you are not old missy! :) xxx