looking back over old blog posts, part one...

Since I started blogging (almost a year & a half ago...crazyyyy!) I have noticed a teeny weeny massive change in myself as a person, the lifestyle I'm living & the way I now see the world around me. So I thought it would be a great idea to reread old blog posts, pick out a few sentences to quote myself & see how things have changed. I read through the first 20 posts I wrote (not including the diving in post on here that I did as an introduction before I copied & published all my old posts across from my previous blog). I really did enjoy reading back through old posts so I think I'm going to call this part one & then cover some more of my old posts at a later date.

 

Let's get cracking then shall we? I've decided I'm going to write a little bit underneath each quote too. Shall we begin now? I'll start off with a quote from my first ever blog post...

 

 

In the early days of blogging it was pretty clear that I had very little going on in my life, I was certainly struggling with anxiety. I just needed a place to free my thoughts from my mind & my blog certainly did that. It helped me from the start & still continues to help me now, thank you blog! :)

 

But look at me now, my blog now not only covers anxiety it now covers nail varnish, fashion , create it yourself posts, do it yourself posts, guest posts, ramblings, life events, music, films, days out & it did cover my driving journey too. 

 

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I didn't used to understand anxiety at all but now I've certainly got a better understanding of it all. Well, I have a much better understanding of my own anxiety & I'm able to control it making life that little bit more easier. Plus I now very rarely actually feel sick, result! That cycle seems to have finally disappeared in to the distance...*waves goodbye to the vicious nausea cycle*!!!

 

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I'm still very well educated on the fact of anxiety has a few ridiculous amount of what ifs but I now know to question them & to also accept them too. Anxiety is a little part of me & along with it comes a fair few what ifs. Most of the time for the most crackers reasons that aren't worth worrying about.

 

I manage to leave the house a heck of a lot more now. It's staying in now that I seem to struggle to do. When I was at home all the time it was so hard to go out but now the roles seems to have been reversed & I seem to spend more time out than I do in. But I'm certainly making the most of it because you never know when life might throw something at you that might make you stop.

 

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I do still have this fear, I'm sure I'm not the only one who has this fear. For some people it is so strong that they won't leave their home at all. I was at that stage at one point too, but slowly but surely I've managed to overcome that hurdle.

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I still very strongly believe that anxiety has brought me together & made me become very good friends with a few lovely ladies but that isn't the only good thing to happen. I now feel I'm stronger as a person, anxiety has given me so much strength. It's brought me down but I've worked my way back up. Anxiety, thank you for making me a stronger person! 

 

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I can still remember this time in my life & it makes me do a little shudder actually, it was awful. I've learnt that feeling sick doesn't mean I will be sick. As for not leaving the house some days, I pretty much leave the house every day. It is very rare if I'm at home for a day. But I do feel a lazy pj day coming on!

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I without a doubt still believe this! I just wanted to throw it in. It's a pretty obvious statement but at the same time is hard to fully accept & realise. Once you've accepted & realised it's down to you, things will get better. Only you can improve your health. Yes others can help you, but in the end you need to put into practice the skills & techniques to cope.

 

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& it's a wrap...
that's it for this post.

I hope you've enjoyed this post, I really enjoyed reading through my old posts...picking out the quotes...creating the photos & putting it all together. I'm thinking of reading through the next 20 posts & doing the same again in a month or so. What do you think?

As always, thanks for reading.
Anna ♥