monthly movie - what if

Admittedly this month I was going to 'review' a recent dvd I bought instead but I ended up going to the cinema yesterday. So it is only right that I chat about the film I saw. If you haven't guessed already what film I went to see, it was WHAT IF.
Since on a regular basis I have 'what if' swimming around my head, the title certainly drew me in & made me want to find out more about the film. I checked out the trailer & thought "yes, this is the kind of film I'd watch". With nobody to join me I decided to go on my own, I'm actually not bothered about going to the cinema on my own. It's like my own little adventure, my own little getaway & it proves I have my independence back. HOOORAAAYYY for independence! *high five*
Luckily this time around this movie only came out last Wednesday I think it was, so you can probably still catch it at a cinema near to you. Wanna see the trailer? I thought you might...
I don't want to be sharing all the story with you, actually I don't want to be sharing any of the story with you to be honest. I want you to watch the trailer & make your own judgement of it.
But, I will share with you some of my opinions...if that's ok, of course. Of course it is, it's my blog right? :) Anyway, firstly I would definitely recommend this movie!
Do you ever find yourself at the cinema or just watching a movie in general & find yourself checking your phone several times for the time? Yeah, me too...but not during this film. I checked once in the beginning because curiosity got the better of me & I wanted to know how long the film had been on, since you have to wait through about twenty minutes of adverts before the film starts.
I really enjoyed watching the relationship between Chantry & Wallace form & grow stronger throughout the film. It really does show you that life can be difficult, relationships can be hard & feelings can be complicated.
One piece of advice I would give you if you do decide to go watch the film is wait until the credits end & the lights come on. I was the only one who waited for that moment & I was the only one during the showing who saw the film actually end differently.


Well that's all I've got to share with you today, if you decide to go & watch it please let me know what you think of it. I'd love to hear your opinion. Let me know if you plan to go & see it too, I just love to hear from you! :)

I've already planned the movie I'm going to see next month too, it comes out next week (I think). I'm going to be going with a friend to see it & I have a feeling it's going to be a hilarious night out. We're going to watch the film, sex tape. I'll add the trailer in for you to check it out too. It looks like it will be a bloomin' hilarious film to watch!

Well that's all for today guys (pretty sure I've already said that, ooppss! this time I'm going, honest!), I'd love to know if you've watched what if & your opinions on it or if you want to go & watch it now, just get in touch. Plus, let me know if you've seen any good films recently too. :)

As always, thanks for reading...
Anna ♥

Barry M - matt nail paint, miami

hellloooooo there! :)
without trying to jinx it, I feel like I'm getting my blogging mojo back....OH YEAHHHH! :D
Over the past week or so I've felt like my sparkle had disappeared, I felt like I was pushing my own enjoyment such as my little blog to the back of life, I wasn't making time for it. But I don't want that to happen anymore. I'm in control of my own happiness, so I'm going to be sure to make time for what I love to do! Infact tomorrow I'm going to be going to the cinema, so expect a movie monthly (if you are new around here, just click movie monthly to find out more)! :)

This weeks nail varnish I'm going to share with you is called Miami. Every time I've painted my nails using one of the Barry M matt nail paints I fall in love with the colour, each time thinking it is my favourite so far...that is until I paint them the next week. Barry M, you've done a cracking job & are yet to disappoint me!

What is the first thing you think of when you hear Miami? For me I thought of the beach, unfortunately I'm not close to a beach so I had to improvise...

Any guesses as to where I actually took these photos? *whispers* I'll tell you at the end of the post, ssssshhhhh! no peeking!

Now it's time for the photos & of course some chitty chat...

As always the colour is an exact match to the product in the bottle. Don't you hate when you buy a nail varnish & it doesn't match the colour it is in the bottle when you paint it onto your nails...not too sure how that even works but I'm not a big fan of it happening.
Every time I've done my nails so far using the matt paint I have only applied one coat & felt it was enough but this time I decided to try two coats instead, for an even bolder colour.
As you can tell I'm a pretty big fan of taking my photos out & about, mainly when walking. I'm trying to mix the photo locations up a little. I know the main focus is the product but I don't just want to photograph each time on my same table. I feel like I've learnt to use my camera a lot more & know how to take the photos better so the main focus is the nails & nail paint.
One of the things I really love about the new colours in the collection is that I can always find something to match them too.
See, like my flowers on my wellies...
 Or the Nike logo on my running bottoms...
WOO HOO for matching!!!
Well, there we have it...this weeks nail varnish/nail paint, whatever you want to call it covered. I'm really enjoying myself creating these posts & hearing from you. I love hearing what you think about the nail varnish, if you bought it, how you find it.

If you want to get in touch & let me know if you've bought any of the new collections or if you are wanting to buy any of the new nail varnishes. I love hearing from you.

There is only TWO more matt nail paints to cover & then I'll be sharing with you the gelly collection. We'll no longer be in summer but does that matter? I wear my nail varnishes whenever I want, no matter what time of year. Bright summer colours always brighten up miserable wintery days.

Coming up next week is Rhossili!

As always, thanks for reading & getting in touch :)

p.s. I took the photos in a bunker on a golf course I live near to. I thought it was a creative idea, my dad just thought I was weird...what's new there? :)

looking back over old blog posts, part one...

Since I started blogging (almost a year & a half ago...crazyyyy!) I have noticed a teeny weeny massive change in myself as a person, the lifestyle I'm living & the way I now see the world around me. So I thought it would be a great idea to reread old blog posts, pick out a few sentences to quote myself & see how things have changed. I read through the first 20 posts I wrote (not including the diving in post on here that I did as an introduction before I copied & published all my old posts across from my previous blog). I really did enjoy reading back through old posts so I think I'm going to call this part one & then cover some more of my old posts at a later date.
Let's get cracking then shall we? I've decided I'm going to write a little bit underneath each quote too. Shall we begin now? I'll start off with a quote from my first ever blog post...
In the early days of blogging it was pretty clear that I had very little going on in my life, I was certainly struggling with anxiety. I just needed a place to free my thoughts from my mind & my blog certainly did that. It helped me from the start & still continues to help me now, thank you blog! :)
But look at me now, my blog now not only covers anxiety it now covers nail varnish, fashion , create it yourself posts, do it yourself posts, guest posts, ramblings, life events, music, films, days out & it did cover my driving journey too. 
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I didn't used to understand anxiety at all but now I've certainly got a better understanding of it all. Well, I have a much better understanding of my own anxiety & I'm able to control it making life that little bit more easier. Plus I now very rarely actually feel sick, result! That cycle seems to have finally disappeared in to the distance...*waves goodbye to the vicious nausea cycle*!!!
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I'm still very well educated on the fact of anxiety has a few ridiculous amount of what ifs but I now know to question them & to also accept them too. Anxiety is a little part of me & along with it comes a fair few what ifs. Most of the time for the most crackers reasons that aren't worth worrying about.
I manage to leave the house a heck of a lot more now. It's staying in now that I seem to struggle to do. When I was at home all the time it was so hard to go out but now the roles seems to have been reversed & I seem to spend more time out than I do in. But I'm certainly making the most of it because you never know when life might throw something at you that might make you stop.
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I do still have this fear, I'm sure I'm not the only one who has this fear. For some people it is so strong that they won't leave their home at all. I was at that stage at one point too, but slowly but surely I've managed to overcome that hurdle.

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I still very strongly believe that anxiety has brought me together & made me become very good friends with a few lovely ladies but that isn't the only good thing to happen. I now feel I'm stronger as a person, anxiety has given me so much strength. It's brought me down but I've worked my way back up. Anxiety, thank you for making me a stronger person! 
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I can still remember this time in my life & it makes me do a little shudder actually, it was awful. I've learnt that feeling sick doesn't mean I will be sick. As for not leaving the house some days, I pretty much leave the house every day. It is very rare if I'm at home for a day. But I do feel a lazy pj day coming on!

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I without a doubt still believe this! I just wanted to throw it in. It's a pretty obvious statement but at the same time is hard to fully accept & realise. Once you've accepted & realised it's down to you, things will get better. Only you can improve your health. Yes others can help you, but in the end you need to put into practice the skills & techniques to cope.
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& it's a wrap...
that's it for this post.

I hope you've enjoyed this post, I really enjoyed reading through my old posts...picking out the quotes...creating the photos & putting it all together. I'm thinking of reading through the next 20 posts & doing the same again in a month or so. What do you think?

As always, thanks for reading.
Anna ♥

uh oh, I kinda got a little scared & deleted my previous post...OOPPSSS!

On Tuesday I took to my little blog you are currently reading to vent, to express myself but last night I found myself deleting the post. I didn't think it would be gone forever, surely there is a magic way to bring it back?! It appears not, but I've come to terms with that now.
I hit the delete button cos I got scared, what if I wrote some thing that comes across as about someone in particular (more than likely the case mind you) & they see it. My blog isn't a place to bitch at all. I use it as a place to just express my thoughts out into the open, that was the exact reason I created my blog. But since I now have followers & a face to the blog it scares me a little bit. Should I be scared about it? I really don't want to be at all & I don't think I should be either.
Maybe, I'll try & waffle away again at what had upset me. Tuesday night I just found myself crying, crying for what felt like such a ridiculous reason. My mind felt so messed up after some thing that happened over the past couple of weeks. I just felt so empty inside, I felt like I'd lost my sparkle & to be honest my self worth. I was doubting myself as a person. I've often done that over the past four/five years since I work for my parents cos nobody else will employ me...real confidence booster that is, oh it really isn't! If I didn't have my parents I'd be screwed! That is why I'm hoping to try & create something I can call my own. My blog is certainly something I'm extremely proud to call my own without a doubt! It isn't the most read blog out there, it doesn't have a thousand followers but what it does have is true content, a very loyal following & it gives me a real sense of pride.
I really don't want to be scared to hit the publish button anymore. I love when I receive a comment saying that they can really relate to me through my blog. That is exactly what I want, I want people to read my blog & be able to relate. To not feel alone in anything they may be going through.
I'm just waffling now but I guess I got the thoughts out of my head & on to paper, so to speak...well onto computer screen :) I'm going to sign off this post now but I want to leave you with two reminders.
It's OK not to be OK
It's OK to cry

I'm going to leave you with them two sayings. I hope you are all well & learn from my mistake...don't go pressing that delete button on impulse. Stop & think about it, once it's's gone! Unless someone knows of a way, other than the half a dozen attempts I've tried already.

I'm working on a really lovely blog post at the minute, really enjoying it. I'm doing bits at a time, it might be up tomorrow this space folks!

As always thanks for reading my chatter,
Anna ♥

Barry M - matt nail paint, malibu

It's almost been TWO WHOLE WEEKS since I last blogged, WHAT?!?!?!
Sometimes life gets a little busy or something happens & blogging gets pushed into the back of my mind a little. Can't say I'm a big fan of that happening but sometimes that's just the way it is but anyway, I'm back....for now! I'm going to try my best to blog more (who's heard that before?!), still got so much more to blog about. So without further ado, let's get on to this lovely chilled Sunday post!
If you are new around here & this is the first time you've come across my blog, hello there & welcome! :) Todays post is going to be the third instalment of the new Barry M matt nail paint summer 2014 collection. A couple of months ago now I won a competition with Barry M, find out about that here (go on click it to find out more, you know you want too!) & I decided that I would share a different colour/nail paint each week with picture form of course, I'm a serious nail varnish addict so nobody is actually using these before I do! :)
I've only covered two so far & they are...
(you know the drill, click the names to be sent straight to the posts! Only if you want to of course, nobody is going to force you :) )
On to this weeks, today I bring to you...MALIBU!!!
I'm trying to mix it up a little bit with the background of the photos, not that the point of the photo is the background. These photos were taken on my morning dog walk this morning. I absolutely love walking down the country lanes, nothing better than a bit of fresh air.
Malibu is such a beautiful colour, the colour is almost a perfect match to the colour of the smurfs. I mean who doesn't love the smurfs hey?! :) It almost reminds me very much of your average blue paint too.
Just like the rest of the Barry M range it is an exact match to the paint in the bottle, sometimes you do get nail polishes that don't appear the same once you paint it onto your nail I right?
I'm not gonna lie, I was slightly extremely impressed when my nails matched my body warmer this morning.
It's a wrap have been shared, a little chatter has taken place...I think it is safe to say this blog post is complete!
Have any of you picked up any of Barry Ms new matt collection, let me know I love hearing from you! :)
I hope you are all having a lovely weekend & as always, thanks very much for reading.
- Anna ♥

a back to basic rant..anxiety, boys, dates, relationship, sex, virginity...IT'S ALL TOO MUCH!!!

This blog post has zero structure. It's going to be like when I first started blogging, just type away what I'm feeling & thinking right now. I don't want to share every single piece of my life on my blog, sometimes things just have to remain to keep a healthy balance. The situation up to this questioning & clogs ticking in my brain will be remaining private unless I'm obviously friends with you & I've shared it with you. But the situation is...
Admittedly not 3 of them in my life right now...just to throw that in there.
I'm not the kind of girl to go out looking for love. Admittedly the past five years of my life I haven't even really spoken to any boy, well the odd friend or fellow tweeter. I've been too busy focusing on my family, friends & getting myself together...ain't nobody got time for the added stress & possible pressure that a relationship sometimes brings! I really enjoy my own company, which I think is an added bonus but then in the same breathe I also like other peoples company too.
I often look around in the little town I live in & see people I went to school with starting families, some have two kids already & here I am...single & slightly scared, anxious & curious what the world of boys can bring...
A programme last night that I watched this morning (thank you sky+) called Virgin Territory, it follows fifteen young adults who still proudly hold their V card. I think it is a fantastic idea to film such a documentary to prove that if you are still a virgin as a young adult, it's ok...there is nothing wrong with it. So that put me at ease a little bit because I'm still a virgin myself...did I really just write that on my blog?! Looks that way. But there just seems to be so much pressure to loose your virginity, to be meeting boys, having sex...blah, blah, blah! Isn't sex meant to be a personal & intimate thing? Just like your virginity too?
Anyway, I didn't come here to talk about virginity but I came here to talk about how I feel like I've lost the ability to know what the hell is normal! Basically guys, I've been asked if I'd like to go on a date sometime...let me tell you this guys it was just as much of a shock to me as it is to you! :P Two things went through my head at the time...Number 1...ME?! & number people actually go on dates?! I'm 22 & haven't been on a single date. My usual kind of a 'date' would be me taking myself to the cinema...solo dates for the win?! I guess some company wouldn't be that bad but would anxiety behave itself & agree? Who knows!
Another problem I have is the ability to not get too attached. I do have a tendency to get slightly attached. I don't want to get full on attached to anyone or anything so quickly, but how can I help it? What I want is someone I can cuddle, watch tv with, watch movies with, chill with, go on walks with...just be myself with them! Is that too much to ask?
Okay, I'm going to leave it at quite literally laying my cards out on the table so to speak. Getting out everything what is built up in my head, that is what blogs are for...right? Anyway, any words of encouragement guys feel free to send them my way, thanks! X

Barry M - matt nail paint, copa cabana

"her name was Lola,
she was a showgirl,
with yellow feathers in her hair & a dress cut down to there... the copa, copabanaaaaaaaa"
I'd be lying if I said I wasn't singing it to myself when I read the name of the nail varnish & I'd also be lying if I said I wasn't listening to it now too & totally boogying along... come on, join in with me will you?
Funnily enough this post isn't meant to be all singing & dancing so I'll get on with what I came here to do...
I came here today (oh gosh, I kind of feel like that felt very wedding ceremony...we are gathered here today) to share with you the next nail varnish/nail paint in the Barry M matt collection. If you missed last weeks check it out here...go on, you know you want to. You'll also be able to find out how I've become the very proud owner of all this loveliness! Admittedly the name isn't as fabulous as this offence cancun or Barry M. But I just looovvee this weeks choice because of the song. The colours are just equally beautiful...Barry M how do you do it?!
Last week I decided to paint my nails on the Saturday night & then take the photos on the Sunday when it was lovely weather outside, natural lighting is the way forward. But this week I did it a little different, I painted my nails just before tea tonight & then headed out on a dog walk to take the photos because my gardens natural light was pants. As you can tell, Pudding clearly is pleased with the nail polish...or maybe he was pleased because I had a treat at the ready.
When I was painting my nails & the colour was drying beautifully, I only needed one coat again & the application was fantastic. It made me think of the poppies that we often see when we are out on our dog walks. So the only thing to do was to find them poppies, without going on the longest walk possible...I managed to find a few & I wasn't wrong or disappointed with the colour match.
 I'm going to try my very best to switch up these nail blog posts, cos I'm sure nobody wants to see the same backgrounds every single time...I know for one I don't want to be photographing with the same background every time either.
So let's see where these photos could take us...who knows, we'll have to wait & see.
I took another photo once I'd got home with my light on in my bedroom to show the colour in a different lighting. 
I for one am not disappointed in this nail polish or the colour. I'm even more impressed cos it happens to pretty much match the back of my vamps cd, see for your own eyes why don't you...
See I wasn't lying, was I? oh no sirey I really wasn't. :)
Righty ho, that is this post complete...I've come & done exactly what I wanted to I must bid you goodnight!
So far I'd definitely recommend copa cabana & cancun, infact to be completely honest I'd recommend most of Barry Ms nail varnishes. I'm pretty sure I've almost used them all, well atleast one a fair few of each range!
I really hope this post/photos have given you a better look into the copa cabana nail paint.
Let me know if you have this colour & what you think to it...or infact if you have any of the new colours in the matt range. I'd love to hear from you...leave me a comment, send me a message or send me a tweet.
As always, thanks for reading.
Anna ♥
p.s. I couldn't decide myself which order to share to nail polish in so I decided to just go by alphabetical order. Hope that works well for you! Next week will be malibu. :)

what's happening?!

I feel like I've been soooo far behind with blogging, by blogging I mean writing & reading. But I want that to change. I feel like recently I've been pushing my own enjoyment back, my own enjoyment being my little blog & crafting too. I've been pushing it back & not making time for them, not good!

I absolutely LOVE my blog. It is without a doubt one of my greatest achievements. I love the work & effort I have put into it & I really want it to continue to grow. So I'm here to quickly share a little update post of what to expect, post wise.

I've created a list of blog posts I'm wanting to create, as soon as the idea pops in my head I get jotting them down if I'm not on my laptop. Here are a few of them that you can hopefully *fingers crossed* expect to see over the next month...
Weekly Barry M nail posts
After winning a competition with Barry M I've decided I'm going to share all the nail varnishes with you because if you don't know already, I lurrrvvvveee me some nail varnish! So once a week, either Saturday or Sunday I'm going to share a nail varnish with you. I'm starting with the matt collection then heading over to the gelly collection. If you want to see what you can look forward to seeing click here...I WON A COMPETITION!!!
Quotes from the beginning of blogging
I thought it would be a pretty good idea to read through my old blog posts from the start & pick out a few quotes to prove to you that things do change, things do get better. Really hoping that will help a few of you.
A few guest blogging posts
I've got a few of my lovely blogging friends lined up to write a post for me. There really is some incredible people out there, who also happen to write blogs & I think you should all know about them.
The good things about blogging
I was thinking of creating a blog post about all the good things about blogging, how it has helped me & why I think it is a wonderful idea that anyone can have a go at.
A new edition in my 'life behind the wheel...' series
I've previously wrote about what I hate about driving, if you want to check that out you can by clicking here. So I thought it was only right that this time I did a post listing the things I love about driving. It's a love hate kind of relationship we've got going on.

August edition of monthly movie
Monthly movie if you're new is basically a movie 'review' (still struggle to class myself as a blogger & class reviews as reviews..I'm a slightly awkward bean) for the month, this month is going to be a DVD but's still a movie right? :) If you want to read last months why not click here?

& that's the list folks! I hope you stick around :)

I'm currently house sitting for the night/tomorrow so it is the perfect opportunity to get try & get all up to date with the blogging community! Hope you are all well & are having a lovely chilled Friday, whatever you may be doing! I can't do a post & not add a picture so here...

have a little screen shot of my recent Instagram, my first ever is high on the adorable scale (that is totally a thing, surely?!) If you want to give me a follow whilst you're at it, then why name is annaaaa12 :) let's be friends, if we aren't already?!

As always, thanks for reading...I'll speak to you soon, well to a certain extent I guess!

Anna ♥

p.s. I'm off to go & watch that awkward moment with Zac Efron in it, girls....who else has seen it?! Let me know! I have a feeling this might be the movie for August since there isn't anything in cinema at the minute that has caught my eye.