a post to my fellow anxiety fighters out there, november edition!

Something happened today, that made me stop think & actually get a little annoyed...obviously it is still on my mind now, hence why I'm blogging about it. This world we live in is filled with millions of people, success is completely different for each individual. You should never let anyone make you question your success. Success is completely different for everyone. Success for you reading this could be so simple on other peoples success scale, but such a massive deal for you. But that doesn't mean it isn't a success, it doesn't mean you shouldn't be proud of yourself, it doesn't mean your success is less successful than another persons. There is an awful lot of success being thrown around in this post.

I'm going to go back in the past a little now, two years...Two years ago success for me was leaving the house for an hour at a time, managing the journey to town (only sometimes, other times having to go straight back home). Is that the kind of success that most twenty year olds have? No, but does that make it any less important to me in my journey? No, no it bloody doesn't! Success is different for each individual.

Two years down the line, I've managed to pass my driving test & get a job. I'm managing life pretty well, getting a good balance of everything. I don't want to go back to where I was. Don't get me wrong, I'm well aware that things can go backwards sometimes & yes I do still have off days (who doesnt?!) but they also will get better again. If you are reading this & you're struggling, believe me when I say things will get easier.

My working day is either a 4 or 5 hour shift, by the sounds of it though that isn't 'a proper working day'...for someone who couldn't manage to stay in town/shops for having fear/actually having a panic attack I'd beg to differ! It is something I'm extremely proud of & I'm not going to let anyone make me question otherwise. I'm now working in a shop, where before had I used to get filled with fear of panic...if you ask me, that is success.

You reading this post, you should never let anyone make you feel your success isn't important or worth celebrating. Whatever you succeed in, always celebrate. Your success is shaping you into the person you are today, your success might gradually get bigger & bigger. Nobody has high success do they without going downwards first.

After over 4 year of not having a job with a contract I want to hopefully give you hope, hope that things will eventually fall in to place. I'm not going to lie & pretend it was easy, it wasn't. Some days I'd cry, some days I'd scream but you know what, that is ok. Cry if you want to cry, scream if you want to scream. Just make sure you keep on fighting, you & I can get through this.

My fellow anxiety fighters out there, remember...don't ever give up & don't let anyone ever question your success!


  1. Yes, absolutely! Success is whatever you consider to be a success and it's different for each and every person. I think how far you've come is a complete success and you have every right to be proud of your achievements (of which I'm sure there'll be many more).
    I've been measuring success at the moment by how much I can move my ankle each day - after 6 weeks in plaster it's going to take a long time before I can walk properly again but each day is a small step closer :-) xx

    1. without a doubt! :) I class my little space here a success but I couldn't exactly tell you what it is that makes me feel that way :/

      every day is a step in the right direction, in your case it will be a step won't it :) xxx

  2. Just keep your head up chick you're wonderful xxx